fresh air

i feel like my holiday is going down the drain!
man.. what with lan and lit and library and applications.

sometimes, its so hard to make time.
sometimes, your ambiguity is driving me nuts.
sometimes, i fear all is lost.
sometimes, though, i know it isn't but am to afraid to take the first step.
sometimes, actually always, i fear that i will get thrown into a whole swallowing darkness.
sometimes, it is way too easy to lose focus and forget.
sometimes, its so much easier to detach yourself and not care.
sometimes, hoping is all there is.
sometimes, i just love the nature.
sometimes, i hate how these very surroundings make me go through crap.
sometimes, i regret and regret and regret.
sometimes, i ask myself 'why bother?'
sometimes, many times, many times.